Friday, March 09, 2007
{ 5:01 AM }
ah! just came back from np. actually i came back quite early today..sigh. actually there's still many things kept in my heart. sometimes i think i'm a hypocrite. i dont like some things, but i just dont say it. sometimes it's killing me and there's this urge to blurt it out, but again, on second thoughts, i should just shut my mouth and act as though nothing is passing through my mind that instant. i think there's some problem with me? or maybe i'm getting too suspicious? maybe time will confirm all my speculations..i dont understand what are we working so hard for? what's the use of working hard when you know the answer will never be the one you want? sometimes i feel so tired..i want to take a step back and slow down. everything's moving so quickly and i'm just following where the flow brings me to. am i going to the place i want to go? i've been telling myself that i must nu li..but looking at things which are unfair happening around me, i suddenly felt so hopeless. will hard work get you to your desired destination? i'm not sure. nobody's sure..lalala~today's the start of our one week long holidays. althought it's very extremely short, but still it's a good time to rest and charge ourselves(: i'm in love with the song- first day!